Liar Liar Pants on Fire.

Lies. One of the worst things you can do. If anyone who’s ever read The Kite Runner might remember the quote Baba said to his son. “When you kill a man, you steal a life,” Baba said. “You steal his wife’s right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, […]

curse the faces in the weeds.

Things in relationships are hard, especially with two people. Things happen and then you go to a therapist and thing that everything will be okay if you just do what she says that maybe it will help. But its the opposite it causes problems and over-reactions. Its like maybe you shouldn’t go anymore because you […]

I thought we had a damn good thing

I am wrong. I hold on to things too tightly. I don’t let them go when they need to be let go of. I’m not a good person. I don’t know what I should even be writing about. its all a fucking joke anyway. getting better is a joke. having a therapist is a joke, […]

Needed you, needed you.

I feel so unwanted. So lonely. I do not know what I’m doing or what I’m going to write this is just an impulse write to stop from doing something stupid. I’m broken, I have to fake it till I make it. I am so lonely. I use drugs to numb myself to all the […]


I know what your heart feels like from the inside. I knew your voice before I knew my own. I was you before I was me. I trusted that you would always keep me safe as best you could. I know things happen, life happens, things can go very wrong. And they did. They went […]

Im crawling in my skin

I’ve never wanted to give up as badly as I have now. Anxious. Anxious. Anxious. The walls cave in and I get stranded under them. In this home of sadness I’ve made. I’ve made this personal hell that I am in. No one can help. I can only be held while I break down on my bathroom floor […]