Lift me up…

I’ve been trying to write a letter to my dead beat father for awhile now so that I can send it to him via snail mail. Every time I try I get angry and emotional and start taking my anger out on everyone else. It’s a vicious cycle, he finally agreed to do therapy with me, but […]

Playing catch up…

I started off this month with a nasty bladder infection that had progressed pretty badly. I don’t like going to doctors so I just don’t, I haven’t had health insurance for 6 years until this year. (I’m a big advocate for free healthcare) So when I went to the doctor finally after both of my partners […]

Punch a Nazi in the face today.

Charlottesville, VA. One of the closest watched city in America right now with the Alt-Right riots. I am constantly amazed that people can be so hateful and so filled with hate. I worked in a small town at the time of the election so I delivered to all kinds of  Trump supports. The most difficult issue […]

I promise you…

I have the most supportive family and friends. I am depressed to the point that I haven’t been eating very much if at all. I have a UTI that I haven’t gone to the doctor for. I haven’t been taking care of myself. And my poor mother is worried, and I always end up worrying her […]

Dear true loves…

I would give every piece of me to see both of you happy. I would go through hell and back just to give you what you needed. And yet, I cause so many problems between us. And it worries me. I have pieces of me strewn out about the state and parts of my heart […]

Lil Update.

I went and saw my new doctor yesterday and she was so sweet and sincere. One of my favorites so far. She’s very communicative, which I need from a doctor, I’m now only on 4 medications instead of my 6/7. I got a lot of things I wanted to happen done with this appointment and […]

I think too much…

I am not a good person. I am honestly the worst person you will ever meet. I am manipulative, easy to anger, annoying, and hard headed. I am the most stubborn person you will ever meet. I run my mouth when I don’t know what I’m talking about. I’m afraid of everything. I am constantly scared about […]